Burning bridges down

I just had it with all these morons. They fucking piss me off. I know I have changed but I'm thankful for that. I didn't use to fight with my friends before but now I do and I fucking hate them. All their problems are pathetic and stupid. Some don't study properly, some ignore me, some boast about making out with a girl for the first time, some don't even answer my posts, some don't even post just to update me on things, some used me just to get to my sister.

ITS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS BUT I NEVER TOLD YOU GUYS BECAUSE I CARED!

And what the fuck? Is it so easy to forget a friend? Whenever I get the chance I would at least post in Facebook or chat with you guys, but you just had to fucking ignore me and pretend to be offline, after that you guys make up some shitty excuse for me to believe.

Fuck it! And none of you changed at least a little bit. It shows you couldn't mature just a bit. I hate all of you except a couple of others.

I wanted to back there this March but you guys fucking ruined it for me. I'm not going back. I'd rather stay here in this rotting country than fucking see your faces.

FUCK YOU!

Short-haired asian girls

You know, ever since I watched my first H!P video which is °Cute - Ookinai MV, I fell in love with Chisato. By that moment, that's when my taste in hair changed. Having short hair is seriously cute on any girl but "Asian women" are my kind of thing.

Since the day Wonder Girls and 2NE1 rose to popularity in the music scene, it sparked my interest in Korean girl groups. To be honest, none of the girls in WG and 2NE1 got my attention but during the MV Countdown in MYX, there came Girls' Generation, the song was Genie and I went crazy for that song.

Some girl during the 2:00 minute mark got my attention. She had SHORT HAIR AND THE MOST CUTEST FACE EVAR!! Yup, I freaked out the moment I saw her face. And her name is SooYoung. Ack, the name, just the name makes me go wild. Not only SooYoung from Girls' Generation but also Ga-in from Brown Eyed Girls.

Now, Ga-in has a different kind of aura from SooYoung, she's doesn't seem like the cute type but more on the sexy type. I mean watch Abracadabra. She's freakin' HOT.

Phew, that's that for now.

Venting it out..

It seems like the band I was in found a new vocalist and I felt kind of bad because I thought I was supposed to be the vocalist but then again I remembered I was already going to the Philippiens to continue my studies there.

Now, about this new vocalist, it seems that he has the potential to be one. I mean he can growl/scream and sing clean. Wow, I've always wanted to learn how to but I never got the chance. Anyways it seems like it's so easy to forget me. Thanks a lot, I know about the different timezone but you guys could atleast tell me about your plans rather than surprise me about it.

It's fine, keep the vocalist. I'm not coming back anyway. What's the point if I do? I'm just wasting money if I go back there. So, you guys can go buttfuck yourselves (oh, it's your favourite gay joke). I quit the fucking band. Me? 3rd guitarist? What band do you think you guys are? Iron Maiden? Metalcore bands don't need three guitarists. Two is enough to make dual melodies, idiots.

Besides, you guys are lame. I don't to hear anymore shit from you guys. Enjoy your new member. I know you guys don't have a choice but you could at least told me beforehand.

I hate myself..

Ever since I came to Philippines my life has changed. I really miss my old life in Dubai, where I used to watch anime and read manga all day, play games on the console and computer with friends and cousins, eat delicious Shawarma, having my own computer where I can download whatever shit I want.

Now, it's like all of those things I used to do in Dubai are gone. The anime maniac inside of me just died and it's fucking awful. No more idolizing seiyuus'. Shawarma here sucks ass and I live far away from my family. No more computer where I can download porn and gravure idol photobooks.

But....it's not like I'm not enjoying, I play DotA a lot more than before, met new people, made new friends, found a new band and so on. It's just that I miss the life I had before where I imprison myself in the house.

I know, it's pathetic and I hate myself.